Jutros sam se probudila iz sna sa slikom psa vučjaka na livadi. Nije me začudilo da sam sanjala psa budući da procesuiram odlazak Pepija. Nije me začudilo niti da je pas bio vučjak, s obzirom da nisam do kraja procesuirala gubitak Rexa, predivnog mješanca njemačkog ovčara. Zapravo se još uvijek raspliće ista priča: priča oContinue reading “Kako su mi psi pomogli da se usudim izraziti želje srca”
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Čudo života: priča o Pijinim bebama
Već sam napisala priču o tome kako smo se Pia i ja upoznale (https://ivanasdreaming.com/2022/03/24/the-magical-story-of-how-pia-and-i-found-each-other/). Prvo sam je sanjala, a onda sam uz pomoć moje nećakinje, otišla naći Piju, koja se rodila u selu pored moje mame u Zagorju. Premda nismo znale da postoji, našle smo se jer smo se tako negdje valjda već dogovorile. KaoContinue reading “Čudo života: priča o Pijinim bebama”
(Ra)stvaranje: škola plesa s Velikim Kanibalom
Prema legendi naroda Penobscot nalazimo se u vremenu plesa Velikog Kanibala, kojeg je pozvala zemlja jer su ljudi krenuli u samouništenje. Ovo vrijeme genocida, ratova i višestrukih kriza vrijeme je razgradnje dosadašnjih paradigmi I struktura, što donosi mogućnosti za vizioniranje, sanjanje i stvaranje novog društva. Svi imamo mogućnost sudjelovati u tome, birati da li ćemo seContinue reading “(Ra)stvaranje: škola plesa s Velikim Kanibalom”
Predaja
Sinoć sam išla spavati s tugom na srcu i prsnom košu. Stiskale su me izgovorene riječi i djela ljudi s kojima sam u interakcijama, stiskale su me moje neizgovorene riječi, stiskala me percipirana nužnost obrane. Stiskala me nepripadnost. Stiskao me sav trud koji ide u stvaranje nekog smislenog djelovanja u doba besmisla. Stiskala me težinaContinue reading “Predaja”
“Ja sam jer smo mi”
Većina vas koja će ovo čitati me zna pa vjerojatno i zna da imam kompleksan odnos s DOMovinom i ovim našim društveno-kulturološkim uređnjem, odnosno mentalitetom. Svaki put kad živim negdje drugdje dobijem neke uvide zašto, što me smeta, što mi ovdje nedostaje, a naravno i što volim. Posljednje iskustvo života u inozmestvu bilo je mojContinue reading ““Ja sam jer smo mi””
Fierce love in service of truth
A few weeks ago I decided I was going to write a book, but I have not really been writing much. But as I started to take the tincture with ayahuasca wine (not psychedelic), so much emotions have come to the surface, and they want to get out. So, here I am writing another blogContinue reading “Fierce love in service of truth”
What setting up a home has shown me about myself
I am back in my home country, feeling some heaviness with respect to my relationship to home again. This time I feel stronger due to experiencing a different kind of home in Tucson, with my beloved. A very supportive home, a very supportive community. Which I have never had growing up here in Croatia. LackContinue reading “What setting up a home has shown me about myself”
Worldviews, law(s) and power: time to step away from the square(s) into the circle
I have been thinking a lot about how the worldviews and cultures define us, now that I am in the USA. Not only is the dominant culture in the USA very different to the one(s) in Europe, and Croatia in particular, in the USA there (co)exist two diametrically opposite worldviews: the settler colonial/Western and theContinue reading “Worldviews, law(s) and power: time to step away from the square(s) into the circle”
A time for another story: novi početak
Today I got really scared, feeling how far I am removed from so many things I considered my life. I felt I had no ground. This land is so far from where I am born. This culture so different to the one I was born into. It all became too big, I was feeling thisContinue reading “A time for another story: novi početak”
Sacred union
Tonight I had a dream which I don’t remember much Except the quality of my soul being touched. By the union with my beloved The Sacred Union – I so much love it! Learning through the polarities has been my path Serving as a bridge my sacred art. Waters under the bridge have been wildContinue reading “Sacred union”